Locked Up Abroad Pt. 2 : Panama (walking while black) w/ mc enigma

Cont… from Locked Up Abroad Pt. 1: Panama (walking while black) w/ mc enigma

written by mc enigma of Negros Americanos

locked up

When I first stepped foot into the cell, my sneakers slid on some dark, wet slippery substance.  Before I looked down to see what it was, I’d already figured it out.  There was about a thick 1-inch sheet of excrement glazing the floor of the jail cell.  It was a mixture of liquid and solid.

I partially vomited in my mouth and swallowed it ecstatically, trying to cancel out the shitty taste that came with the smell of that horrid place.

The officer slammed door shut.

One detainee shouted, “chucha!”

Chucha meant vagina or fuck in Pana-slang.  It was the first word I’d learned in Panama and would later be a hit  for Negros Americanos.

The first hour was intense.  We were all eyeing one another.  One detainee with tattoos all over his chest started shouting obscenities through the cell doors towards the police.  He then directed his angst toward an elderly man.  The tatted captive tried to Deebo (slang for extorted, Deebo’ed : a colloquial term used by but not limited to inner-city youth that have likened extortion with a character from the film Friday) the old man, but his tirade was interrupted by the captive who was taken from his daughter.  The man who’d had his child snatched from his hands wasn’t fazed by the threats of the tatted inmate.  This guy wasn’t having it and he was already pissed off.

They bumped heads, literally.

The tattoo-covered detainee’s body flew from a headbutt that would make Zidane look like a novice.

In unison we all laughed at him.  The tatted detainee then got up and reached for his belt and unravelled it, whipping his opponent. The pissed-off father then used his belt and they began whipping each other.

The other captives and I kept moving out of the way to avoid the lashes.  The police noticed the commotion and came over.

As the two were tussling, without warning, these orange-ish streams of mist shot into the cell from outside.  It was pepper spray!!!

I buried my face in my shirt and backed up to the wall.  The cops were yelling for us to cut it out.

I wasn’t hit directly, but experienced what former Secretary of Defense Donald Rumsfeld might classify as “slight discomfort,” ingesting a small amount floating around in the cell.

When the two fighting inmates got up off the ground and scattered, I temporarily forgot about the coughing and the pepper spray because I was disgusted and simultaneously perplexed at the sight of the feces-coated epidermises of the two combatants.

They just nonchalantly scraped and flicked it off as if it were dirt.  Yuck, but hey what can you do?  It was literally a shitty situation.

“Why the hell, matter of fact, how the hell did I get here,” I thought to myself.

locked up abroad in panama

An hour or so later, the tatted inmate discovered my bag of coco-flakes and milk.

“El tiene corn-flakes,” he said scheming through his periphery.  Everyone’s eyes shifted to my bag.

I positioned my back against the wall and put them behind my back saying “no,” and motioning with my finger.

Then the tatted inmate came over to me with his hands out saying, “dame, dame.”  He kept walking toward me until he was in my face.

“Donde eres loco?”


“Que parte?”


He backed up a little bit.  I felt like Dave Chappelle in Half Baked…”right near de beach boyeee!” I’m from Plainfield, New Jersey but Panamanians, I believed, wouldn’t take too kindly to folks from a country that killed thousands of their countrymen during the invasion in 1989 and Operation Just Cause.  I figured it was better to be what Sean Fury calls a “Jah-Fak-ian.”

Then a cop came to the cell door with my passport and said “el gringo?”  I sped to the cell door and said “si.” The cop looked at the passport, then looked at me and said “okay,” then he walked away.

When I turned back around the whole cell was staring back at me.  I quickly said that I’d lived in the states and Jamaica to downplay my United States-ness.

“Dame, dame,” the tatted inmate persisted, reaching for my bag of cereal and milk.  I put my hand on his chest, pushing him back.  He started yelling and so did the other inmates for my comeida y leche.  He reached and I pushed, then the police started yelling for us to calm down.

When I looked to where the voice of the officer was coming from, I saw the nozzle of an uzi sticking into the cell door.  We all scattered like roaches.

I maintained my grimace as a defense mechanism until the attention on my cereal and milk subsided.

Although they wanted my cereal, we all didn’t want that cop with the uzi to come back, so we chilled.

As the hours passed we paced, talked, and almost in unison at one point, sung the chorus of “Buay Del Barrio” by El Roockie.

“Hay adentro sentado piensa como escapar.”

There sitting inside thinking how to escape.

A couple more men were added to the cell, one of which was elderly.  The old man overturned a garbage can that was filled to the top with urine and feces into the cell. Then, he used the upside-down garbage pail as a seat.  I maintained an unaffected facade but was holding back from vomiting at the sight and smell of it all.  The plot thickened….literally.  It became harder to breathe in that cell, but I began to get used to it.

Geronimo Pratt

For some reason after a couple hours I thought about a conversation I’d had with my mother about Geronimo Pratt.  She told me that in an interview he’d said that he was able to find peace of mind while serving as a political prisoner for 27 years.  Peace of mind is something that is internal, regardless of outside factors.  I’d internalized that and sat there thinking, “why am I here and what is the lesson in this?” I calmed down and controlled my core although the paranoia was very real, being that police were known for shooting indiscriminately at whoever questioned them with little to no consequence.

Before leaving for Panama one of the last texts I’d read was Are Prisons Obsolete by Angela Davis.  Was all of this to help me empathize with my sisters and brothers locked up in the US and abroad?

Prior to this experience I’d never been detained or arrested and have never spent any time in police custody.  Nothing was more dehumanizing than being apprehended at gunpoint for not giving up money (extortion), handcuffed and thrown into a diarrhea glazed cell.  As we called to the officers throughout the day, they’d ignored us as if we were nothing.  When I was first being put into the cell, I remember looking into the eyes of the officer trying to appeal to his humanity.  I was hoping he’d see that I was a human just like him and that these conditions were unjust and unsanitary, but he put the uzi to my back and pushed me into the cell.


I’d been in there for 13 hours until the doors just opened.


We were all told to leave.

I went to retrieve my passport from the front desk.  The police woman gave it back and then told me to leave immediately.  I’d asked her what I did and if I was being charged and she told me to leave in a more aggressive tone.  Another officer came from behind the desk and unstrapped his handgun and said “tiene problema?”

I said, “no,” and walked out.

Diablo Rojo

Since the cop had smacked the change out of my hand, I didn’t even have any money for a Diablo Rojo. I footed it, walking about 2 miles at night to Calle 16 in Ciudad Radial.  I called Bishop who was looking for me all day.  He’d thought I was kidnapped and we was right but not by street maliantes, but by the pigs!

When I got in, more than anything I wanted to shower, but there wasn’t any running water.

I threw the coco flakes down on my ironing board and just stared at them and reflected, happy that I managed to defend myself and not have them taken from me.

My one day behind bars was a horrible ordeal, but what’s more horrifying is the fact that this happens all the time and all over the world.  My experience definitely helped me empathize with those who’ve been incarcerated or detained, but how many didn’t get let out in a day?  This was an injustice and that day I’ll never get back, but how many folks disappeared in similar situations or were beaten to a bloody pulp for not complying to being extorted by corrupt police?  Or how many were detained indefinitely never to be heard from again? This happened August 29th 2011 and it changed my life.

When I talked to my co-workers at the language school that I taught at, all of the black american co-workers had also been detained at some point during their stay in Panama, but my white american co-workers hadn’t.  My white co-workers said once they talked english and said they were American, they were left alone.  Jim Crow, my friends has passports and as an American citizen one must be extra careful while traveling especially if you’re a black man.   The sad thing is that my story is not a unique one.  If you’ve been unjustly detained while traveling while in the US or abroad, please share your story below.  I know I’m not alone and that there are far worse cases.  Thanks for reading.

Be safe while traveling and watch out for one time.

“It’s the dirty cop, that’s the one you need to watch.” – Erykah Badu


Fuck the police (emphatically).

mc enigma in el chorillo

for other journals from mc enigma

What’s That Crawling On My Face?

How Far Would You Travel For Love

Locked Up Abroad Pt. 1: Panama (walking while black)

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6 thoughts on “Locked Up Abroad Pt. 2 : Panama (walking while black) w/ mc enigma

  1. Pingback: Locked Up Abroad : Panama (walking while black) w/ mc enigma | Bishop's Travels

  2. mike wynter

    I came across your web site by chance as i was looking up holidays in Costa Rica. I am a Black British man of Jamaican heritage. What a story !! I don’t think Europeans really understand how they have completely F up the black race and everyone one else for that matter. Reparations defo required. Grateful if you wouldnt mind keeping me posted. Mike

    • whats happening bro…thanks for landing on the page…i can tell you some stuff about Costa Rica too….we have a lot of info about fun and BLACK things to do in that beautiful country. My ex lives in Limon Costa Rica she has never been to the states so I go back quite frequently and I know the ins and outs of that country…when are you trying to head out there?

  3. smoothwb

    Wsup bruh. Man, I came across this because I was looking for some advice from black men travelling down there. I will be coming down there with a group of dudes and man I do not want to go to jail while we are down there. We are gonna be in the downtown area for the most part. How do we keep from getting messed over by these corrupt cops. When I was in Honduras some cops tried to extort money from us. Can you give me some advice to stay safe bruh? We just want to party and have a good time. Seems like it’s some Him Grow stuff going on down there.

    • hey man sorry it took me so long to respond.. I would say to stay safe out there.. just mind your business. Only go into certain neighborhoods with ppl from there. And not if they are wanted. AAALLLWAYS keep your passport on you bro. Thats a must, if they ask you for it and you don’t show, they will take you in. carry some cash to pay them off just in case just like in Honduras. Also don’t be in large groups.. and NeVeR walk around with your shirt off or with a wife-beater.. they automatically associate that with gangsta activity

      • smoothwb

        Thanks for the advice bruh. Man it’s like Jim crow down there. It’s gonna be 6 of us in a group and we definitely look like black dudes. I planned on wearing my Jordan’s and snapback caps while I was down there. Hope that don’t get me shot. No wife beaters cool, but what about a bulls jersey or tank top? I can dress up with the best of them, but I’m like dang bruh I’m gonna be on vacation. I gotta wear button downs to work everyday so I wanted to just do me when I was down there. But if it can land me in a jail with feces on the floor, I’m just gonna have to look like uncle Tom while I’m there. Lol. I appreciate you dude. You not still down there are you or know any people that can show is around?

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